for the world, and love, and freedom
i can do it
i want control
but i also want happiness
and freedom and control
rips you out of freedom
as much as i want control
i don't want control
to control me, and that is
always what happens
i will be stronger than myself
and be free, and in control
going against my real wants, maybe
but i want to be an example
i want the kids to be able to look up to me
and i want to be honest
i want my baby to be proud of me
i want to be happy and proud of myself
for him and for me
i know what it does, it is terrible
and as much as i want it
i can't do it, to us, to me, to the kids
i can't do it to the world
i can't preach something
and then lie to everyone
doesn't work that way
if i want people to be strong,
i should be strong too
if i want people to take risks
i should take risks too
if i want people to be free in their own life
i need to be free in mine
stop living for others
live for me with others
i want a clean house and a clean body
a clean soul, a clean relationship
a clean family
no lies
be proud of myself
be proud of my surroundings
be proud of how i handle things
i am stronger than myself and i know it
and i know if i keep up, i will be strong